Sunday, October 6, 2013

Letting go.

Layla boo has two dolls that she really loves they are the old versions of the little mommy dolls.

One has crazy red hair that is sticking up everywhere because laylaboo use to hold her by the hair

When she was younger. And as her friends lovingly refer to her as the doll that looks like Chucky..

The other doll is a blond and of course pretty. She loves them both and sometimes play with them

But the thing she really likes is when I make them talk to her.

She likes to pretend that they are her two friends and sometimes they have problems and she helps them out.

The thing I love is having these dolls talk to her really get her to open up about important  things

Maybe things that are bothering her or even better is when she gives them advice on what to do.

I have been making the dolls talk to her since she was 4 or 5yrs old.

each doll has it's own personality and way of talking.

The other day Laylaboo said to me "mom I think I am getting a little to old for you to be making the

Dolls talk to me it is kind of silly. Is that OK with you"?

As I told her of course it was and that we all out grow stuff it did make me a little sad.

I was going to miss making them talk and sharing honest conversation with my daughter.

We talk about everything anyway and she is always honest with me ,but it was as if a special

tradition was being stopped and quite frankly I felt a little lost...

Yesterday when I was looking for something in laylaboos closet I came across them tucked inside

Of her box of memories and I felt myself feeling a little sentimental ,silly I know but it was as if

I was holding on to the last part of the little girl who was and now moving on to the mini wannabee

Tween who was only 8.

Because it seems like now days 8yr olds and 9yr olds don't play with toys they are way to grow up and cool for that.

Part of me wanted to go back to when Dora was laylaboos hero and all she really wanted to do was

be a princess or play dress up .

But I know I cannot hold her back or keep her bottled up as a little girl, She has to be able to spread

her wings and become the young lady she is supposed to be.

And this scares me because all I want to do is sit down and have a talk with all of us girls me

Layla boo and Alyssa and Kaylee her two dolls and maybe just maybe Layla boo can guide us

and helps us understand  that at some point we have to move on , let go and let grow up  rather

 or not we want to.

And a secret between you and me....Sometimes when laylaboo is away I like to sneak in her room

And grab her two dolls out of the box and sit on the floor with them and remember all the

conversations and memories Laylaboo and I had..

I am not really looking forward to losing other traditions and things we do that soon she will say our silly

or she is to big for and, what will I do when she tells me that she is to big to do something with me

or really doesn't want me to come along. . I will become that crazy mother who will

find a way to try and make her childhood last as long as possible because I am not ready for my little

girl to grow up .

How about you fellow readers has your child outgrew something or a tradition that you do

how did you handle it or maybe you didn't.

I would love to hear your thoughts and stories.

And as  always thanks so much for following me and reading my blog I really appreciate it!!!

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